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End of Year Vidding Meme 2018

2018
festivids - Believer (American Gods, Shadowmoon)
vividcon club vivid - New Rules (Supernatural, Dean/Cas)
vividcon club vivid - You Should Be Dafting (AVP: Alien vs. Predator (2004), mother, Scar, Alexa Woods)
vividcon club vivid - Let's Dance to Joy Division (Supernatural Wayward Sisters, ensemble)
vividcon challenge - a horse with no name (mother!)
vividcon premiere - Blow (Deconstructed) (Supernatural Wayward Sisters, Claire Novak)
vividcon self-portrait - i am a ridiculous person (multifandom, vidder self cannibalism)
vividcon from here to there - That Time (The Good Place, Eleanor Shellstrop)

Total of 8 vids, including a collaboration.

My favorite video this year (of my own)
I like everything I made this year, but Let's Dance to Joy Division is my favorite. I love these characters and I usually don't get to vid this kind of music. I think I'll end up vidding Supernatural Wayward Sisters more in the future too.

Least favorite
As I said, I like everything I made this year, so You Should Be Dafting just by process of elimination. I probably could have done more, but whatever, I still like it.

Most successful
Blow (Deconstructed) just because it went to in depth and I had more people than usual tell me they were touched by it. And a couple people said it made them want to watch the show again. Supernatural is my sparkling garbage and I love it.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
New Rules because that shit is good and more people should like it.

Video with single sexiest moment
I would say 2:30ish to 2:42 in i am a ridiculous person, then I completely ruin it with the next clip for funsies.

Biggest vid fail
For sure there's a bit in Believer at around 2:05 where I wanted the timing to be different. There's a guy hitting the bars used to lower the casket into the ground because they weren't working. Unfortunately the exact second I wanted to hit the beat was corrupted and I couldn't get the bit to encode without a frame of black. I gave in and left it off the beat.

Hardest video to make
a horse with no name because I had a difficult time deciding what to leave out. There's much I didn't put in. I could make a whole entire other vid from what I didn't use in this one.

Most unintentionally *telling* video
That Time started out intentionally telling, but then when I finished it I realized a lot more of my life issues came through than I had thought. A lot of Eleanor's backstory is similiar with mine, which I knew going in, but I didn't realize maybe I want my future to be like her's too.

Things I've learned
I did so much research on tension (check out the link for panel notes), which is great knowledge. I tried out those concepts and they're great to have in mind when I'm vidding.

I kept using my vidding bullet journal that I've used since 2017. I kept tracking my vidding activity, time, and progress on vids. I crowdsourced and complied a list of all the parts of vidding, then color coded them so I could fill in time tracking.



15 minutes a day working on something vidding related was an achievable goal and I logged what vidding process I did. A lot of the time all I do is listen to my vid song playlist while I'm in the shower. That's all I need to keep myself active, then I can get back into doing the heavy parts of vidding, like the actual editing. I did a lot of research and learning when I wasn't in a creative place in my vidding cycle.

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(monthly tracking for 2018)

I was consistent doing at least 15 minutes of vidding related something. I didn't vid a lot towards the end of the year, but I don't feel any guilt over doing other things. I didn't have the notion or time to edit, but I kept up with listening to my vid songs, which is better than giving it up entirely and whinying about how I'm quiting vidding. It's more that I'm not in a creating mood or frame of mind. I might cycle back around to it, but I don't want to push myself yet.

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(vidding pipeline, gannt chart, resolutions, and due dates)

Things to work on
I want to continue using my vidding bullet journal for tracking and vidding. I have a better understanding of what spreads are helpful to me and what I tried out last year that didn't work out. I'm going to continue limiting myself to only 3 works in progress. It kept me from abandoning vids for another shiny vid idea. I want to collaborate on another vid. I want to do more socializing too, like commenting and reccing and leaving feedback. I want to start putting a couple seconds of black at the beginning of vids again too.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
I want to do vids for the new Fanworks con. I have some emotionally heavy (for me) vid ideas I want to work on too.

Resolutions for 2019
Looking back at last year's resolutions, I went to Vividcon, made a vid masterlist, had only 3 works in progress at a time, didn't work on a tong term non-preferred vid idea, and didn't edit every month. This year I want to continue having only 3 works in progress, have my vid posts ready before the con, and update AO3 with all my vids.

If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

festivids - Default (Drunk History) - I got drunk a bunch of times and made this vid in the spirit of Drunk History.
festivids - a song for diana (Lights Out) - Sophie's song for Diana
wiscon_vidparty - Bette Davis Eyes (The Final Girls) - Max & her mom, Amanda
vividcon premiere - She Keeps Me Warm (Inside Out) - TripleDent gum will make you smile.
vividcon auction - Marche Funebre Yrasor (Alucarda) - grow tall
vividcon club vivid - 7:30am (Hannibal (NBC)) - Reba & Francis
vividcon themed - So Close (Crimson Peak) - Black moths feed on butterflies.
vividcon challenge - Sunshine Part I (Westworld) - when skies are grey
and I did a section of Telephone, a multifandom vid that I don't think every was posted online.

Total of 8 vids, plus a section in a collaboration.

( questions and answers and photos of my nerdiness )
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

Curated for WisCon (wiscon_vidparty) 2016, Halsey - Collection of vids with music from Halsey.
*content notes*

Halsey is a singer and songwriter with music used in numerous vids pertaining to feminist science fiction and fantasty fandoms and themes. I curated a list of vids with an emphasis on class, sexuality, race, and gender.

For ease of viewing, youtube playlist.

1. Danni G's Orphan Black - Gasoline (Orphan Black)
2. Emmanuel Perez's Katniss Everdeen (Castle) (The Hunger Games)
3. jess9191's Control - Faith Lehane (BTVS/ATS) (Buffy the Vampire Slayer & Angel: The Series)
4. Danieck Marsman's Finn and Rey / Young God (Halsey) (Star Wars: The Force Awakens)
5. eemersonm's Is There Somewhere | Multifemslash (Multifandom)
6. Miss Alphabet's Steven Universe AMV | Control (Lapis Tribute) (Steven Universe)
7. kiki_miserychic's Colors - Mr. Robot - Halsey (Mr. Robot)
8. collsssss's Killjoys: Castle (Killjoys)
9. jess9191's Gasoline - Jessica Jones (Jessica Jones)

Links to previous WisCon Playlists I've curated:
(Free Kesha!)'s Murderous Women! Playlist - WisCon_VidParty 2016 (Collection of vids about murderous women that use the music of Kesha)
Beyoncé Playlist - WisCon_VidParty 2015 (Collection of vids with music from Beyoncé)
Dessa Playlist - WisCon 2014 (Collection of vids with music from Dessa)
Thank Heaven for Little Girls Playlist - WisCon 2013 (Collection of vids about little girls: their protectors, their victims, their worlds, their families, their missions, their deaths...)

Please, if you have links to other vids of Halsey's music, leave links in the comments. Thank you.

December, but only because I backdated my festivids posts and they were released in January technically
25 - World Spins Madly On (New Amsterdam) - Woke up and wished that I was dead.
26 - #timeangels (Time Angels episodes of NTSF:SD:SUV::) - (It's a fake trailer.) Time Angels, coming this fall to Adult Swim. Come with Seconds, Minutes, Hours, Dash, Clock, Millie... and Mona Lisa as they repair tears in the fabric of time.

January and Febuary
none

March
5 - Snakes on a Plane (Person of Interest) - Reese is legit tired of the machine.

April
none

May
25 - Lonely Little Petunia (The Walking Dead) - Lizzie survived in a world lacking resources for little girls.

June
none

July
13 - Runs in the Family (Hannibal) - w͍̦͠ḩat ͜d̢o̸ ̷yo͘u ̓͂̍̽̋̽sè͆̾̑҉ë̽͆̕?̅̕ (character study of Abigail Hobbs in season one and two.)

August, but really they're vids that premiered at Vividcon, so, like, why do I even categorize these by when I released them online?
12 - ***Flawless (Disney Princesses movies (Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, Pocahontas, Mulan, The Princess and the Frog, Tangled, Brave, and Frozen)) - We woke up like this.
13 - I Do Adore (Adventure Time) - Every little thing Marceline does, Princess Bubblegum adores. Kinda. (BUBBLINE 4EVA).
13 - You are a runner & I am my father's son (Teen Wolf) - a haiku for fictional ladies: / sorry your story / was left in such clumsy hands / i will avenge you


Total of 8 vids, 5 of which are under 2 minutes and could be considered vidlets... I was really into vidlets for the "get in, do the thing, get out" aspect.


My favorite video this year (of my own)
Runs in the Family. Absolutely my favorite vid I made this year. It's the most brain to actual timeline vid thing I've produced. My brain categorized all of the source in such a way that I made it a vid. Abigail is a character close to my heart and I stan for her 100%.

Least favorite
World Spins Madly On. I had a difficult time making it. I had offered Night Watch and Day Watch for festivids, but I quickly realized I wouldn't be able to finish the vid I was working on, so I put it aside and started watching New Amsterdam to make a vid. Then I scrambled for a song. Then I had to actually vid it. The product ended up with poor pacing because I needed the song to fit the concept of being chronological, which meant the beginning was boring as FRELLING FRAK. Looking back I do enjoy parts of the vid.

Most successful
***Flawless. It was inadvertently successful. I made it for Club Vivid, but it didn't fit into the other music, so the Vividcon people offered to let me move it to Challenges. But I didn't like the idea of putting it in Challenges when I didn't make it for the themes, so I asked if I could make ***Flawless my premiere in place of Runs in the Family, which I had already submitted. It worked out that ***Flawless became my premiere and I released Runs in the Family online pre-VVC. I made ***Flawless for Club Vivid thinking people would dance to it, watch it later, and think "oh ok I get it now." It was a deeply personal experience that I translated into a vid and I didn't think anyone would care about the vid beyond myself, but I was wrong.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
I Do Adore. Only because I didn't know how to tag it properly for the fandom to find it. It was appreciated by friends' child relative and that's all I really wanted.

Video with single sexiest moment
You are a runner & I am my father's son. The :58-1:05 section is hella sexy with the threesome dancing because that scene in the show was awesome. I'm into it even though there is so much sausage in there. Mostly because the sausages seemed equally into each other as they were into Erica. Bless those sad-eyed little puppies and their love of extended eye contact. Then it goes into Erica putting her hand on Scott and Allison's thigh in a same scene deal where Erica tries to intimidate both of them sexually. Of course Allison on top of Erica is hot in a screwed up way considering how that storyline played out. Season one was beautiful fluke.

Biggest vid fail
#timeangels. I was trying to make a fake tv promo trailer thingy and I suck at it. I'm still obsessed with the concept and execution of vid trailers.

Hardest video to make
World Spins Madly On. Because of the reasons I put in the lease favorite category above.

Most unintentionally *telling* video
***Flawless was intentionally telling, so I'll say Runs in the Family because there's some intense connections to my life that I didn't realize until I rewatched for this meme. (Isn't that always how it happens?)

Things I've learned
I learned a lot about vidders' lyrical interpretation styles for the Vividcon 2014 Lyrical Interpretation Panel with hollywoodgrrl. I ate everyone's brains and gained their knowledge.

I realized that if I edit with 1080p source, I have to export it as 1080p for it to look good. I have some major exporting regrets this year. I'm upping my technical skills slowly, but I think I'm getting better with time.

I learned that I can't speak well in public about vidding for Vividcon panels.

Things to work on
I should ask friends to "beta" by vid summaries for VVC. The one for You are a runner & I am my father's son confused people and I overestimated the audiences' awareness of the title clip where I used a blur to focus in on just Erica to set up that it was about her. With a little of Boyd.

I need to work on exporting. I have a new laptop, but I can't even get Sony Vegas installed properly on it, so I might have to give up vidding and relearn how to knit.

I'm continuing from previous years with "I want to try vidding female characters that do more than beat people up and make things explode while being pretty." I think I accomplished that with character studies of female characters that are perceived to be weak.

Last year I said "I think this year I want to try considering the audience more to stretch myself." I didn't do it on purpose, but I made an audience appreciated vid for Vividcon premieres... So I'm going to call that goal from last year accomplished and go back to my "fuck bitches; get money" frame of mind because I'm unlikely to make any vid as audience appreciated as ***Flawless.

Wait, I can't call it accomplished completely because I also said "I'd like to make one vid this year where I actually vid for an audience." I kind of did that for Wiscon, but I think I'll keep trying to make something more audience minded for Wiscon_vidparty.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
I want to do my vid idea for the Taylor Swift 1989 vid album, which I plan to be my Vidukon vid. I want to finish my festivid assignment. I want to do some Vividcon vids. I had some good ideas for Festivids that I want to keep thinking about. They were treats for friends I wanted to make, but I'm a piece of shit and know I won't be able to finish them by the deadline.

Resolutions for 2014
To finish up the questions on the Vidding Questions Meme. J left a comment that I missed, so I'll start with those, but now I want to answer them all. I noticed some comments on vids I never saw, so I'll be going back to answer those after I finish my festivid.

Again, I want to go to VVC and hope that I won't be laid off again from work. I'm going to suggest a vidshow again because I really enjoyed pulling together the Femslash vidshow this year. I'm still really pleased with it for the amazing vidders that contributed, the diversity in the sources, the different styles, and the everything of it.

I'm going to make suggestion of some vidshows I'd curate for Wiscon_vidparty again this year too. I really enjoyed curating the Dessa Playlist in 2014. I already have two possibilities in mind depending on what else I find this year. It depends on what I get for festivids too. I played the long game with my requests and asked for things I put in personal vid playlists.

I changed my vidding note style and want to keep trying new journaling styles. I found an index one I want to try out for 2015.

Continuing to look at last year's resolutions, I failed at being "more social online" in terms of vidding. My interactions are mostly on twitter, which is great aside from the 140 character limit when I'm a wordy mofo. I don't think many of my friends are still on LJ without being on twitter. I'm a terrible friend anyway.

It's after 2am and I think I need to purge myself of work in progress vids that I'm not feeling anymore. So in 2015 I want to release some WIP vids to clear them from my head because nothing kills an idea for me like showing it to people.

OMG, my resolution should be to just vid more.

And in addition:
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

I'm the terrible person that's posting a questions meme while I'm still working on the answers to the last one I posted. But I'm a follower and I'm jealous of everyone else getting into vidding discussions.

Give me a number (or several) and I will answer!

1. Describe your comfort zone—a typical you-vid.
2. Is there a genre or style you've yet to try your hand at, but really want to?
3. Is there a genre or style you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole?
4. How many vid ideas are you nurturing right now? Care to share one of them?
5. Share one of your strengths.
6. Share one of your weaknesses.
7. Point to a section from one of your favorite vids you've made and explain why you're proud of it.
8. Which vid was the hardest to make?
9. Which vid was the easiest to make?
10. Is vidding your passion or just a fun hobby?
11. Is there a section of canon above all others that inspires you just a little bit more?
12. What's the best vidding advice you've ever come across?
13. What's the worst vidding advice you've ever come across?
14. If you only could vid one show/movie for the rest of your life, which show/movie would it be?
15. Do you work mostly from start to finish, or do you vid sections out of order?
16. Do you use any tools, like clip notes or storyboards?
17. Stephen King once said that his muse is a man who lives in the basement. Do you have a muse?
18. Describe your perfect vidding conditions.
19. How many times do you usually revise your vid before posting?
20. Choose a section from one of your earlier vids and talk about whether and how you'd do it differently now. (Person sending the ask is free to make suggestions).
21. If you were to revise one of your older vids from start to finish, which would it be and why?
22. Have you ever deleted one of your published vids?
23. What do you look for in a beta?
24. Do you beta yourself? If so, what kind of beta are you?
25. How do you feel about collaborations?
26. Share three of your favorite vidders and why you like them so much.
27. Do you accept prompts?
28. Do you take liberties with canon or are you very strict about your vids being canon compliant?
29. How do you feel about smut?
30. How do you feel about crack?
31. Which is your favorite site for posting vids?
32. Talk about your current vids in progress.
33. Talk about a comment or review that made your day.
34. Do you ever get rude reviews and how do you deal with them?

Femslash Vidshow (Hug a Woman With Your Legs) Recs (I truly rec all of these vids. There's not a single one I didn't enjoy and love. I tried to pull together as varied choices as I could, so please enjoy.)

In femslash things can be more fun, more complicated, more adorable, more colorful, over the top, but never sated. Where fear and propaganda can meet. Sometimes it's sad and sweet, sometimes it needs to be created or seen from a different angle. They can be separated by glass, separated by death, always in our hears, like a fairytale that was fated to be cut together from different parts to become something new.

1. Scarlett North-Cavanaugh's It Keeps Getting Better (Multi) - This is actually framed as an advertisement, but I really like how it showed current femslash relationships in the media today.
2. elipie's The Way We Get By (Broad City) - This is my jam. I love this show, this couple, this vidder, this everything.
3. shati's We Are Complicated (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) - There's such a distinct understanding of Faith/Buffy. The nuances in the movement within the vid is great.
4. kitty's Don't Let Me Fall (Yes or No) - So adorable. I already have the source on my must see list. So adorable and sweet.
5. kiki_miserychic's I Do Adore (Adventure Time) - Self-rec, I know, but Princess Bubblegum and Marceline are so cute and in love. I'd originally started this for cherryice's festivid treat, but ended up rewatching the whole show instead of making the deadline.
6. sweetestdrain's Let Me Put My Love Into You (Bitch Slap) - How could I not include some exploitive and over the top awesome? Too good.
7. The Cylon Vidding Machine (beccatoria, metatxt, cyborganize, and heyiya)'s The Enemy Within PSA (Battlestar Galactica) - Funny and creepy at the same time. With boobs. My faves.
8. milly's Wonder (Once Upon a Time) - Breaks my heart when I think of Mulan. WEEE CCCOOOOULLD OFFF HHAAAADD IIITTT AAAAALLLLLLLL.
9. niyalune's Mrs. and Mrs. Blake (Teen Wolf) - Beautifully constructed trailer for underused characters (Jennifer and Kali). Epic as all hell.
10. anoel's Ready or Not (Faking It) - Another vid that made me seek out the source after watching. So cute and sad and adorable.
11. ghost_lingering's Signs (Dark Angel) - I adore this vidlet and everything that it is. Original Cindy was FORMATIVE for me.
12. zeppie9294's Let Her Go (The Last of Us) - So heartbreaking and wonderful.
13. fray_adjacent's Everywhere (Xena: Warrior Princess) - I think there's a guideline somewhere that femslash vidshows should have Xena in them and this vid is perfection.
14. FenrirsLittleSister's I Was Married (The Little Mermaid and Aladdin) - I'm so glad I was able to include this vid. The way the sources were put together and the storyline achieved fill me with joy. It's like taking something from childhood and reconstructing it into something new.
15. beccatoria and chaila's Hands Away (Fringe/Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles) - I knew I had to have this vid in my femslash vidshow. Come on, look at it. It's skillfully made and I bought into the premise immediately.
16. hollywoodgrrl and ohvienna's Vitalum Vitalis (American Horror Story: Coven) - When they sent it to me, I watched it and cried so hard. I thought they were going to "fix" the ending with Cordelia and Misty Day... It's their fault that I didn't have a happy ending femslash vidshow. Those assholes (ilu tho).

Alternate Universe Final Vid for Those Who Long for Happy Endings: jarrow's I Wanna Dance (Glee) - Dancing Lesbians! Be good to yourself and be converted to Faberry and Brittana.

A special thank you to those vidders who kindly allowed me to use their work and those who created premieres. You are brilliant unicorns and I treasure you like pancakes.

vid title: ***Flawless
music: Beyoncé featuring Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie's We should all be feminists
source: Disney Princesses movies (Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs, Cinderella, Sleeping Beauty, The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, Pocahontas, Mulan, The Princess and the Frog, Tangled, Brave, and Frozen)
duration: 4:11
Disney Princesses Featured: Snow White, Cinderella, Aurora, Ariel, Belle, Jasmine, Pocahontas, Mulan, Tiana, Rapunzel, Merida, Anna, Elsa...
notes: I could write notes to fill a novel, but I can't, so ask anything you'd like.
summary: We woke up like this.

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January
5 - Enter the Circus (MirrorMask) - It's going to be a bumpy ride to the other side.

February, March, April
none

May
18 - When I am Laid in Earth (Utopia) - He named his daughter Jessica Hyde. Jessica. Hyde.

25 - Après Moi (Person of Interest) - After Samantha Shaw, comes the flood.

June and July
none

August
20 - That's Life (Barefoot in the Park) - Frozen skinny Bratter lovers found on 10th street, 6th floor.

20 - Who Needs Sleep? (Elementary) - Forget Sherlock, Irene, and Moriarty. Forget being a sober companion and a consulting detective. Joan Watson just wants to get some sleep.

21 - All I Need (Superatural) - Four times Dean Winchester’s loved ones overcame mind control for him.

September, October, November
none

December
7 - Endure and Survive (Teen Wolf) - Sterek zombie AU.


Total of 7 vids, 4 of which are under 2 minutes and could be considered vidlets... What's the definition of a vidlet these days? In my mind the length doesn't always equate vid vs. vidlet. Hmmm.


My favorite video this year (of my own)
When I am Laid in Earth. I was playing with connecting clips going from frame to frame. Like trying to manipulate the viewers' eyelines. Utopia is a beautifully screwy show and I think I captured a lot of that. The visuals of the show were gorgeous and I loved pulling together things within frame and moving them around. Plus, Jessica Hyde is an interesting character and I can't wait to see what happens in season two. Blood dripping from a severed down a toilet paper dispenser in a public bathroom is the most beautiful images I saw in 2013.

Least favorite
All I Need only because I feel like I could have done more to even out the visual source. I used episodes that span across seasons where the look of the show changed tremendously. The earlier seasons are dark and moody with sparse color and the recent seasons are BRIGHT AS THE SUN by comparison. I have two Supernatural vid ideas that I really, really want to do once I get the last few clips to make my points, but I do not look forward to trying to make the visual menu balanced.

Most successful
Who Needs Sleep? simply because elipie and some others got what I was going for, but I genuinely did not expect. I find that if I expect no one to understand what I was going for, I'm super happy when someone does get it. Lower expectations is where it's at.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
Endure and Survive because I love zombies and I think that everyone else should too. I quite like how the black and white turned out with all the different sources. It melds perfectly with the fic storyline. I suppose not many people could thoroughly enjoy it without reading the fic, but IDGAF because I love me some zombie!AU.

Video with single sexiest moment
Après Moi. There's a moment at about 2:12-2:20 where Sarah Shahi's character, Shaw, is advancing in a series of clips, which is sexy as hell. Shaw could kill you or kiss you and you won't know until after she's done it. I am so into the Shaw and Root dynamic on Person of Interest that I'm actually writing kinky fic of them. I rarely write fic, so it's huge that I'm actually trying for sexy times.

Biggest vid fail
Enter the Circus because I didn't remember to post the signed version online until I went to do this meme. Oops. I also failed at posting recs to livejournal. I did a few on twitter and posted all of my vividcon recs to livejournal though.

Hardest video to make
Endure and Survive because the different sources were a pain for me technically. I had trouble evening out the black and white and contrast and levels for everything. I can stand back and look at it and see a few things that I didn't balance enough, but I had a deadline for the Teen Wolf Big Bang and I'm very happy with what I made. It's strange for me to say that about a vid, so I'm obviously happy with it.

Most unintentionally *telling* video
That's Life. Barefoot in the Park is one of the first non-children's movies I ever got to see. That and Silence of Lambs and Leprechaun II, but that's a different story. Movies and tv had a large influence on my development. The tv show Mad About You and Barefoot in the Park formed what I thought a romantic relationship was supposed to be along with my personal examples in my young little life. I think Jane Fonda's character, Corie, was one of the first, if not the original Manic Pixie Girlfriend. I'm amazed that I understood what was going on in the movie, which is basically a newly married couple's first fight that escalates to the point where they're "trapped" in their "apartment." Trying to look at it objectively, I think this movie is part of the reason why I go for the Paul Bratter type and the Corie Bratter type in my personal life, which makes it telling.

Things I've learned
I think I did better with the technical aspects of vidding this year (this is when compared to my previous years and not the epic awesome skills of others). I learned how to chop off the letterboxing once I've rendered my vid. I started rendering my vids uncompressed with square pixels, then putting them into virtualdub to fix the frame if needed, and popping them into autogk. I think that's working out...

I learned some more about tumblr and vidding by researching for the tumblr section of the Vividcon 2013 Infinite Diversity in Vidding Combination Panel. It's like a rabbit hole that sucked me in and gave me thousand of new thoughts and new ways to think. And continues to do so today. I absolutely love how helpful tumblr can do for organizing vid time lines. With certain vids I'm able to pull gifs into the timeline as a placeholder for actual video clips into funnel them in.

Things to work on
Last year I said, "I want to try vidding female characters that do more than beat people up and make things explode while being pretty." I think I failed partly on that, but I've expanded myself a bit more and want to continue trying. The ideas I've had for 2014 vids have evolved a bit from violent women ideas, more of a different angle on the characters I enjoy. Last year I also said, "This year I'm going to focus on making vids that have higher quality video instead of lower quality for artistic reasons that make them muddy." I think I accomplished this one for the most part. I always struggle with technical stuff, but this year was better than most for fixing those problems.

In the past I've tried to be more subdued in my vidding and I've tried to widen my window of vid ideas. I think this year I want to try considering the audience more to stretch myself. I started caring very little about what people thought about my vids, which is freeing. I'd like to make one vid this year where I actually vid for an audience. I made my festivids with this in mind, so I'm getting a head start on it.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
I considered only making vids for cons this year, but I find that to do more limiting than I want. Instead I'll say that I want to make vids for Vividcon, Wiscon, and VidUKon. Anything else on top of those is icing.

Resolutions for 2014
Again, I want to go to VVC and hope that my school doesn't have another in-service on the dates. I e-mailed by supervisor about the dates. Driving to Chicago after a day of boring meetings sucked HARD and I will not be doing that ever again. I won't know if I have a job next year for a while. I'll probably be riffed again along with the whole department, which isn't a positive outlook. I'll have to find another job, so I don't know if I'll be able to enjoy myself at VVC if I'm thinking in the back of my mind that I need to find another job.

I was made of epic fail and didn't properly send the e-mail for VVC about putting together a femslash vidshow with lots of premieres, so I'm trying again this year... maybe. I'm going to make suggestion of some vidshows I'd curate for Wiscon again this year. I really enjoyed curating the Thank Heaven for Little Girls Playlist in 2013.

I want to continue filling up my vidding journal. (I find an old one I started years ago, lost, found it, lost it again, found it, lost it, and found it again, which I need to scan pages from for laurashapiro from last year's meme.)

I need to be more social online too. I'm so bad at that. I always feel like I'm trying to hard to be friends with people, like this:



And in addition:
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

January, February, March, April, May, June
none

July
11 - I See Everything (Firefly/Serenity) - prompt (I See Everything, Firefly, River/Inara, dance)

August
18 - Long, Long Time Ago (Destino) - A surreal dance through the universe with a woman who loves a man. A man set free from stone to go after the woman carved in his heart.

19 - He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) - I feel so empty since he's been gone.

19 - Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) - Music without lyrics. People without faces.

20 - MoneyGrabber (Smash) - You're the one I just don't need.

21 - Dutch (Hell on Wheels) - Lily Bell, The Fair-Haired Maiden of The West

September, October, November, December
none

Total of 6 vids, one of which is a vidlet.

My favorite video this year (of my own)
MoneyGrabber (Smash) because it's a different vid for me. It's actually the second version because the first finished vid file was corrupted. I like how it turned out better because all the female rivalry turned into a more sexualized tension. The first version was more narratively even, but I like that Michael/Julia/Frank service as a cautionary tale in the beginning until it's time for them to go. I enjoy a good love rhombus until it's run it's track and Dev was a cheap time whore. Karen and Ivy have really good cheer sex and should role play in bed.

Least favorite
Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) because it did what I wanted it to do, which is make me uncomfortable when I watch it.

Most successful
I didn't really have a successful vid this year when measured in traditional terms, like number of comments. I approached vidding very differently this year and I was successful in eliciting certain things. In those terms, He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) was the most successful. Going to VVC for the first time I wanted to aim for one comment on a vid and if I got that comment, I met my goal. I wanted this one to break someone because I'm evil. I wasn't prepared for the weird looks after Challenges though, lolz.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
I don't think any of them were "under-appreciated" simply because I made them with objectives and it doesn't bother me when people don't understand them. Until VVC I didn't fully realize how much of a minority opinion that was. If someone didn't like my vid or didn't understand it, that means it wasn't for them. I was surprised that Long, Long Time Ago (Destino) wasn't liked. I wanted to make something beautiful that I enjoyed, so I appreciate it and I overheard people saying it was beautiful, which is what I wanted.

Video with single sexiest moment
Duh, I See Everything (Firefly/Serenity) because there's actual pornography. I read up on masking tutorials and edited out The Operative. This vid was the only time it's acceptable to edit out Chiwetel Ejiofor. I played with coloring in more organic ways to match different sources. Seriously, why are people frightened by vaginas? They don't eat your soul or have teeth.

Biggest vid fail
I would say Dutch (Hell on Wheels) because I knew what I was doing wasn't going to work, but I did it anyways because I'm stubborn. I'm proud of that vidding fail though. I like it edited that way because Lily talks to fast and is the book that beat the speedreader. I love how her storyline is the more traditionally male origin story. Her husband died to give her motivation and she has visually beautiful dreams of him and his pretty eyes in fields. Hell on Wheels has flaws, but I'm well practiced in ignoring faults of a show for certain characters.

Hardest video to make
I am forever plagued with technical difficulties. ROSEBUD! I made Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) in Adobe Premiere 6.5 and I hate using that program for main editing. I like using it for "spices" when vidding primarily in Sony Vegas 11. I rendered that vid at least 50 times and I still think I messed it up in the end.

Most unintentionally *telling* video
Hmm, all of them have some level of personal issues that I leech into them, but He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) has a lot of emotional resonance for me in my real life. I stopped most of my emotional spewing on my livejournal, which is a good thing, but a couple of people would be able to watch the vid and see how telling it is.

Things I've learned
Last year I wanted to work on how to participate more and be meaningful in conversations about vidding. In my own way I did that, but I thought and talked more about vidding than I did actual vidding. I don't think I'll ever be able to talk fluidly about vidding because I don't translate the things in my head to words well. I cannot even count how many times at VVC I tried to think of a word and couldn't, stuttered for 30 seconds and gave up. I know I'm not verbally gifted, especially when it comes to something that I don't talk about, like vidding or art. I think I did ok, but probably came off like a tool.

While not strictly about vidding, I did learn that VVC is far different than what I expected. I tried to hang out with as many different people as I could. It's a lot more of a social arena than I expected. I thought it was going to be a hair-braiding, love fest and it's not. There's still rude people and people with stupid, uninformed opinions. It's exactly like a real world only with more glitter. I learned that the people I like online aren't the people I like in person and the people I dislike online aren't the people I dislike in person. That's a complicated way of saying that I learned that people didn't behave the way I expected for the better and the worse.

I also learned to look at my vidding catalog more analytically. I wrote meta this year too, Vidding as My Own Flavor of Feminism. I want to try vidding female characters that do more than beat people up and make things explode while being pretty.

And obsessive24 pointed out that I've been rendering wrong my whole vidding life, which I didn't know. I am FAILBOAT.

Oh, and what I thought was clipping was really me pulling an entire movie or a tons of episodes into Sony Vegas and trimming from there. Oops. FAILBOAT REDUX.

Things to work on
I sent the wrong file into VVC for the DVDs this year, so next year I will be very careful when I'm rendering and naming so that I don't send it a file with stray frames like a douchecanoe. This year I'm going to focus on making vids that have higher quality video instead of lower quality for artistic reasons that make them muddy.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
Every time I say to myself, "self, you are going to finish this vid this year," I don't do it. I will say that I'm going to make a premiere for WisCon. (Everyone should make a premiere for WisCon.) I have a WIP in mind for a Vidukon premiere too, but I'm not sure I'll be able to finish it. I have a Doctor Who vid that would be cool for CVV and an idea for a VVC Premiere as well. With VVC Challenge being Amnesty, I want to finish an old idea for that. kuwdora saw all my WIPs, so she can't tell.

Resolutions for 2013
Go to VVC again and hope that my school doesn't have another in-service on the dates.

I am planning to put together a femslash vidshow with lots of premieres for VVC2013 if everything pans out.

I'm going to use smaller journals for vidding, which makes them portable because writing on my arms and hands is not cute at 26. That and people shouldn't be able to read "dress = power" and wonder what drugs I'm on. Plus, I feel accomplished when I finish a journal. My first vidding journal was massive and took years to fill.

And in addition:
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

For me, writing meta for vidding is a daunting task because I fear sounding unintelligent and childish. Generally I enjoy sounding childish, but if I have set out to sound smart about vidding it defeats my purpose. Therefore, I use the thesaurus tool and hit up spell check LIKE A BOSS.

The only essays I write are for my college classes, which consist of early childhood education theorists and methods. I'm not an academic by any means of the word. Generally, I'm not good with words, hence vidding. When I have something to say, I usually produce a vid instead of saying something. This is not a professional essay or a work of literature. Most of the thoughts are my own, but nearly all my thoughts have been synthesized from somewhere else. This is my disclaimer of trying to not come off as a stuck up vidding expert snob.

( Vidding as My Own Flavor of Feminism )