kiki_miserychic

vid title: Let's Dance to Joy Division
music: The Wombats
source: Supernatural Wayward Sisters
duration: 3:11
notes: Made for 2018.
summary: So if you're ever feeling down, grab your purse and take a taxi to the darker side of town, that's where we'll be...
content notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills) and graphic violence

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Created for the story, Fear of Falling (Apart), by eldiablito_sf and 3988akasha



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Fear of Falling Apart - A Dean/Cas Fanmix for deancasbigbang




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01. Sea of Love - Tom Waits
Do you remember the night we met?
That's the night I knew you were my pet
I want to tell you
How much I love you
I'm drowning in a sea of love

02. Swampy Seconds - Magic Mouth
I got a feeling that I found my home
Through window pane like a flying stone
Settled in my place with a broken sound
You won't hear the glass
Falling on the ground

03. Desire - Meg Myers
Baby, I want to touch you,
I wanna breathe into your will.
See, I gotta to hunt you,
I gotta to bring you to my hell.
Baby, I wanna fuck you,
I wanna feel you in my bones.

04. The Golden Age - Woodkid
Boy, we are family,
No matter what they say,
But boys are meant to flee,
And run away one day.

05. When It's Time To Come Down - The Black Hollies
Take me home
I don't wanna be alone
When it's time to come down

06. Sleep Baby Sleep - Brood
Ignorance is torture but your love is right
Tip to tip a gentleman of the night
Feed my fascination a way our skin likes silk

07. Love Out of Lust - Lykke Li
Rather die in your arms, than die lonesome
Rather die hard, than die hollow
The higher that I climb
The deeper I fall down
I'm running out of time

08. The Body Breaks - Devendra Banhart
The body calls
Yeah, the body, it calls out
It whispers at first
But it ends with a shout

09. Reprise - Grizzly Bear
My love's another kind

10. Fade Into You - Clare Bowen with Sam Palladio
In your heart, in your head,
in your arms, in your bed under your skin,
Til there’s no way to know where
you end and where I begin

11. Happiness - Grant Lee Buffalo
Out of my body, been out of my head
Never mind the curse of war
Proud like a badge that just don't shine no more
Let him bring you happiness, happiness

12. 505 - Artic Monkeys
But I crumble completely when you cry,
It seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye

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Drawn for the Apocalypse Big Bang. Down, Not Defeated by darkravenwrote.

jetpack_monkey's Vividcon 2013 Premieres Intro vid (Multi) - SO CUTE.

bananainpyjamas's I'm No Superman (Lego Batman 2: DC Superheroes) - I love the balance of humor and sincerity that this vid strikes. The musicality hits the perfect chord of adorableness with the movements and narrative structure.

kass' In the Hole (Ripper Street) - Well, I started watching Ripper Street (Old Timey CSI) when I started this recs post and I've already finished it before posting this. I was drawn in by the vid's sound matching with the video, like the kid throwing the rock, then the sound of glass breaking.

jetpack_monkey's Slippery Slope (The Wickerman) - Fuck me sideways. I can't really explain my love for this vid because it's so wrapped in a strange feeling of despair and dread. The use of the movie is so well done, like the slight movements within the clips. The most well known images are edited perfectly in the vid too. The reveal, MY GOD, that man's stupidity... Yes, I know people see the movie differently, but I see that man as stupid in his morality.

anoel's Past the Feeling (Once Upon a Time) - The FEELS of my heart. I don't need to watch Once Upon a Time, I just need to watch anoel's vids. The imagery is gorgeously used and the music is seamlessly woven with them. Regina's story and how her tendrils reach out into the other characters and family. The vid is almost 5 minutes long, but I wanted it to keep going and I didn't want Regina's story to end. I'm bias because I will never be over Swan Queen. I love the segmented nature of the vid and I feel like that's the only way a Regina vid could work. She's a very compartmentalized character and she's written in such bizarre ways. I'm amazed at how the vid draws things together in such a way that it makes a beautiful fairytale... At one point I remember thinking over and over "SOMEONE GIVE REGINA A HUG."

shati's Hope on Fire (Queen Seondeok) - I've watched and heard about Queen Seondeok from beccatoria so much that I feel like I've watched the show. I feel like every Queen Seondeok vid has great clip choice because of the sheer amount of source that it has, yet none of the vids I watch seem stale or repetitious. Your use of the camera motion is lovely and the balance of close up shots with larger scale scenes.

astolat's When I Ruled the World (Person of Interest) - I liked the narrative structure and the use of lyrics in relation to the characters and story lines. The use and creation of the machine sections was especially lovely.

sweetestdrain's Graceless (Spartacus) - There were two vids made with the same concept and source. I love them both differently, but for the same reasons. The progression of the narrative was beautiful and compelling. I love the tender, yet fierce love that comes through in the editing. There's an obvious beginning, middle, and end, which was so brilliantly satisfying while still breaking my heart.

echan's Omega (Fight Club) - CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW MUCH I WANT TO HAVE HATE SEX WITH THIS VID, PLEASE? Like, I would let it do the most unfathomable things to me. The use of, not only the audio, but the SOUNDS. It's music to my eyeballs. I have such a thing for the use of spoken word in vidding.

butterfly's Firework (Supernatural) - I watched a different vid than most of the people I talked to after Premieres. I saw it as Charlie being fabulous and amazing and Dean loving her like a sister (because she's not a love interest threat because she's identified as queer). Through Dean loving Charlie, he accepts his own queerness and love of Cas. Dean embraces his own self by hugging those close to him, showing his emotions, and "rejects" his previous hetero-normative characterization. I said that and everyone on my side of the hotel room looked at me like I'd grown three heads. This is how I choose to perceive this vid and it's beautiful, even if it's not the vidder's intention.

lolachrome's We're All Missing Mama (Peter Pan) - I had a doofy grin on my face during this vid and I know it, even the when it was sad.

killabeez's Dyin' Day (The Hunger Games) - The desolation, my god, the desolation.

hollywoodgrrl's Run Boy Run (Game of Thrones) - One of my favorites that I can't textually render my thoughts without cracking my head open like an e.e. cummings poem. The clips are all so important and all the character's fates are so similar. For me it was all love of the narrative, editing, song use, and the characters coming through without getting lost in it all.

joyo and absolutedestiny's Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want (Infomercials) - I love this on a fannish level, of course, but also in a personal "real life" way, which added to my enjoyment. A group of friends and I play a game where if one of us yells out "person in an infomercial" that person has to finish whatever their doing in an epically and overly dramatic fashion. I've ruin so many things playing this horrible game.

findthesea's No Direction Home (Lost) - I never knew I wanted to see a Sawyer character study until I saw this vid. Having just did a rewatch of Lost (the chronological edit), I had an instant connection to it because the source was still on my mind and in my conversations. It's a rich vid with an interesting structure that I dug. First time vidders that make such great vids make me so jealous.

bradcpu and milly's The Polka Slayer (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) - There's wild and wide humor. It ranges and whips around, which makes it a great ride. I thought it was going to get sad for a moment, but then the funny came back and that's my favorite part.

I wrote a fic, Angel the Series, Lilah, Business of Misery, pg, part 1 and part 2, for Awesome Ladies Ficathon:



I also have the first part of my FIC RECS arranged by fandom: ( ANGEL, BATTLESTAR GALACTICA, BONES, BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER, CHUCK, COMMUNITY, DOCTOR WHO, DOLLHOUSE, ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND, FIGHT CLUB, FIREFLY, FRINGE, HARRY POTTER, HOUSE, THE L WORD, LEGEND OF THE SEEKER, LIFE, LOST, LUTHER, MAD MEN, THE MILLENNIUM TRILOGY, THE OFFICE, PARKS AND RECREATION, PUSHING DAISIES, THE PRETENDER, THE ROYAL TENENBAUMS, SHAKESPEARE, STARGATE: ATLANTIS, SUPERNATURAL, TERMINATOR: THE SARAH CONNOR CHRONICLES, TORCHWOOD, TRUE BLOOD, WEEDS, and WIZARD OF OZ )

My life is going awesome right now with school, student teaching, and other stuff. This semester is the best one I've ever had so far. I'm a big ball of feeling great and enjoying everything, which is new for me. I'm not epically annoyed by everything and hating everyone in the world. It's nice.

My list of vids to feedback and rec is getting longer and longer. It still includes stuff from VVC. I'm working my way through the DVDs slowly and I'll have everything posted before the end of the year. Hopefully.

VID RECS (VVC disc 2 - premieres from themed shows):
dualbunny's I Want What I Want (Bionic Woman) - A sleek and beautiful exploration of Jaime and Sarah, how their characters weave around each other and show how their stories interact.

maichan808's Fun with Real Audio (The Girlie Edition) (Supernatural) - LULZ.

People in fandom tend to forget that there's a person behind the anon submitted vids. They think it's an excuse for them to rude about a vid because their friend's name isn't on it.

VID REC:
Right in Two (Supernatural plus additional source footage) - I'm not seeing the vid the way that a lot of people are. I see it as a genuinely thoughtful and thought out vid.

I read it as the angels come down to earth (Castiel mainly for the vid), looking down on the human "mud monkeys" as lower beings. The news clips seem to come from human events that show the worst of human behavior, like race riots, deaths during civil unrest, riots rising from rallies, racial tension from gang rape, protests turning violent, and police shootings. Castiel takes this all in from the world that's all around him, noted by the tv. The use of the sequence of Dean's death in the 2:20s and the eye zoom makes me think the vidder is implying that it's like hell on earth.

Castiel figures that God is in heaven and has given up on the earth on the awful creation, so Castiel gives into the human nature of the vessel. Castiel and other angels become so influenced by the world around them that they seemingly participate in the reenacting out of the events, the stink of humans and earth having taught them racially modivated violence.

Concept-wise, it's like the vidder is saying that people are taught by the media to see people that are racially different as the "bad guy."

I don't know if this is the intent behind the vid or not. It's my interpretation of the vid, which I'm not going to try and say is the meaning. It's one person's opinion.

nightchik and I complied the Understanding Meta Vids (I C WHUT U DID THAR) vidshow (she ran the panel at VVC) for 2009 vividcon.

Vids that exist on a meta level, working in more ways than one, often suggesting a basis beyond the individual fandoms of the source andmore about a larger concept and/or fandom itself. Vids that go beyond the narrative of their source, commenting on the nature of that narrative, connecting with outside meanings, or placing the story in alarger culture context.

Everytime I thought we had a good description I'd realize it was excluding some type of meta or possibility for meta. I had no idea how tediously difficult it would be a write a definition for what meta vids are. We went for a wide range of meta topics, so I hope people didn't look at it and reject the vidshow in the basis that it's not what they consider to be meta. Meta has a wide variety of possibilities and these vids are some of them:

( On to the playlist! )

Questions? Comments? Suggestions? While this was the playlist for meta vids used in the vidshow, I encourage others to drop links in the comments to other meta vids. Feel free to spark discussions as well. I'm sure they'll be notes coming from the meta panel and I'd love for online discussion as well.