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Curated for WisCon 2013, "Thank Heaven for Little Girls" - Collection of vids about little girls: their protectors, their victims, their worlds, their families, their missions, their deaths...

1. Say Aha - absolutedestiny - Alien
2. Brand New You're Retro - hollywoodgrrl - Caprica/Battlestar Galactica
3. Black Dresses - sol_se - Justified
4. Riot Act - thuviaptarth - Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles
5. Down by the Water - danegen - Southland
6. Cosmia - dualbunny - Pan's Labyinth

January, February, March, April, May, June
none

July
11 - I See Everything (Firefly/Serenity) - prompt (I See Everything, Firefly, River/Inara, dance)

August
18 - Long, Long Time Ago (Destino) - A surreal dance through the universe with a woman who loves a man. A man set free from stone to go after the woman carved in his heart.

19 - He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) - I feel so empty since he's been gone.

19 - Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) - Music without lyrics. People without faces.

20 - MoneyGrabber (Smash) - You're the one I just don't need.

21 - Dutch (Hell on Wheels) - Lily Bell, The Fair-Haired Maiden of The West

September, October, November, December
none

Total of 6 vids, one of which is a vidlet.

My favorite video this year (of my own)
MoneyGrabber (Smash) because it's a different vid for me. It's actually the second version because the first finished vid file was corrupted. I like how it turned out better because all the female rivalry turned into a more sexualized tension. The first version was more narratively even, but I like that Michael/Julia/Frank service as a cautionary tale in the beginning until it's time for them to go. I enjoy a good love rhombus until it's run it's track and Dev was a cheap time whore. Karen and Ivy have really good cheer sex and should role play in bed.

Least favorite
Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) because it did what I wanted it to do, which is make me uncomfortable when I watch it.

Most successful
I didn't really have a successful vid this year when measured in traditional terms, like number of comments. I approached vidding very differently this year and I was successful in eliciting certain things. In those terms, He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) was the most successful. Going to VVC for the first time I wanted to aim for one comment on a vid and if I got that comment, I met my goal. I wanted this one to break someone because I'm evil. I wasn't prepared for the weird looks after Challenges though, lolz.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
I don't think any of them were "under-appreciated" simply because I made them with objectives and it doesn't bother me when people don't understand them. Until VVC I didn't fully realize how much of a minority opinion that was. If someone didn't like my vid or didn't understand it, that means it wasn't for them. I was surprised that Long, Long Time Ago (Destino) wasn't liked. I wanted to make something beautiful that I enjoyed, so I appreciate it and I overheard people saying it was beautiful, which is what I wanted.

Video with single sexiest moment
Duh, I See Everything (Firefly/Serenity) because there's actual pornography. I read up on masking tutorials and edited out The Operative. This vid was the only time it's acceptable to edit out Chiwetel Ejiofor. I played with coloring in more organic ways to match different sources. Seriously, why are people frightened by vaginas? They don't eat your soul or have teeth.

Biggest vid fail
I would say Dutch (Hell on Wheels) because I knew what I was doing wasn't going to work, but I did it anyways because I'm stubborn. I'm proud of that vidding fail though. I like it edited that way because Lily talks to fast and is the book that beat the speedreader. I love how her storyline is the more traditionally male origin story. Her husband died to give her motivation and she has visually beautiful dreams of him and his pretty eyes in fields. Hell on Wheels has flaws, but I'm well practiced in ignoring faults of a show for certain characters.

Hardest video to make
I am forever plagued with technical difficulties. ROSEBUD! I made Hand Covers Bruise Reprise (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo) in Adobe Premiere 6.5 and I hate using that program for main editing. I like using it for "spices" when vidding primarily in Sony Vegas 11. I rendered that vid at least 50 times and I still think I messed it up in the end.

Most unintentionally *telling* video
Hmm, all of them have some level of personal issues that I leech into them, but He Called Me Baby (Enlightened) has a lot of emotional resonance for me in my real life. I stopped most of my emotional spewing on my livejournal, which is a good thing, but a couple of people would be able to watch the vid and see how telling it is.

Things I've learned
Last year I wanted to work on how to participate more and be meaningful in conversations about vidding. In my own way I did that, but I thought and talked more about vidding than I did actual vidding. I don't think I'll ever be able to talk fluidly about vidding because I don't translate the things in my head to words well. I cannot even count how many times at VVC I tried to think of a word and couldn't, stuttered for 30 seconds and gave up. I know I'm not verbally gifted, especially when it comes to something that I don't talk about, like vidding or art. I think I did ok, but probably came off like a tool.

While not strictly about vidding, I did learn that VVC is far different than what I expected. I tried to hang out with as many different people as I could. It's a lot more of a social arena than I expected. I thought it was going to be a hair-braiding, love fest and it's not. There's still rude people and people with stupid, uninformed opinions. It's exactly like a real world only with more glitter. I learned that the people I like online aren't the people I like in person and the people I dislike online aren't the people I dislike in person. That's a complicated way of saying that I learned that people didn't behave the way I expected for the better and the worse.

I also learned to look at my vidding catalog more analytically. I wrote meta this year too, Vidding as My Own Flavor of Feminism. I want to try vidding female characters that do more than beat people up and make things explode while being pretty.

And obsessive24 pointed out that I've been rendering wrong my whole vidding life, which I didn't know. I am FAILBOAT.

Oh, and what I thought was clipping was really me pulling an entire movie or a tons of episodes into Sony Vegas and trimming from there. Oops. FAILBOAT REDUX.

Things to work on
I sent the wrong file into VVC for the DVDs this year, so next year I will be very careful when I'm rendering and naming so that I don't send it a file with stray frames like a douchecanoe. This year I'm going to focus on making vids that have higher quality video instead of lower quality for artistic reasons that make them muddy.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
Every time I say to myself, "self, you are going to finish this vid this year," I don't do it. I will say that I'm going to make a premiere for WisCon. (Everyone should make a premiere for WisCon.) I have a WIP in mind for a Vidukon premiere too, but I'm not sure I'll be able to finish it. I have a Doctor Who vid that would be cool for CVV and an idea for a VVC Premiere as well. With VVC Challenge being Amnesty, I want to finish an old idea for that. kuwdora saw all my WIPs, so she can't tell.

Resolutions for 2013
Go to VVC again and hope that my school doesn't have another in-service on the dates.

I am planning to put together a femslash vidshow with lots of premieres for VVC2013 if everything pans out.

I'm going to use smaller journals for vidding, which makes them portable because writing on my arms and hands is not cute at 26. That and people shouldn't be able to read "dress = power" and wonder what drugs I'm on. Plus, I feel accomplished when I finish a journal. My first vidding journal was massive and took years to fill.

And in addition:
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

CHALLENGE

Future Proof (Chronicle) - Deftly paced and edited vid that makes me want to check out the source. It looks similar to The Fades (which I loved). -obsessive24

Shake It Out (The New World) - A forcefully powerful and important vid. -mresundance

Jar Oh! Hearts (Multi) - OMGICOULDWATCHTHISONREPEATANDSEETHEJOURNEYOVERANDOVERANDOVER -Jescaflowne


AUCTION

Mama Said Knock You Out (Avatar: The Last Airbender (2005) and The Legend of Korra (2012)) - Excellent vid. Love it and I'm going to watch The Legend of Korra now. I give in. -absolutedestiny

The Death and The Navigator (The Navigator (1987)) - I have no idea what's going on, but I don't care because it's a beautiful vid. -absolutedestiny

Mr. Brightside (The Talented Mr. Ripley) - I love the use of an instrumental version of a song a lot of people know the words to without hearing them. It adds an interesting level to the vid. Very effective pacing and clip choice, especially the way the murder scene plays out in the vid. -jarrow

Moves Like Jagger (multi) - Scientologists are going to come for you. When this vid is over, you have my permission to freak out. -kuwdora

VividCon Premieres 2012 Intro Vid (multi) - EPIC AS HALE. -greensilver

Fields of Coal (The Unusuals) - I have such a deep love of the show that I was worried the vid would just be someone who watched for Jeremy Renner. I cannot express how happy I was with this vid. I had a doofy smile on my face the entire time, even at the sad bits, because I was just so happy that it existed. -barkley

The Adventure (Harry Potter) - Who doesn't love Neville? If I had feelings, I'd probably have gotten misty. I thought it was interesting during In Depth when it was said that most of fandom is coming from the "same place" as Neville. I don't know how true it is, but I do know that Harry Potter, the character, was like boring sand paper to me, so anything that makes someone else's journey the focus it fantastic. -greensilver

Forever Yours (House) - The enthusiasm and love in this vid is unparalleled. It took 8 years and it needed to be made and it needed to loved by me. For a brief moment I forgot that Wilson was totally dying. -anoel

Let Me Put My Love in You (Bitchslap) - This movie owned me, so I was sold before the vid even started. The added bonus was that the vid is so amazing and I didn't want to blink for fear of missing a second. It has the witty tongue-in-cheek winking thing going for it because it never takes itself too seriously and when it does, there's a hilarious edit to bring it back to camp. -sweetestdrain

Lateralus (Fringe) - I love how this stood out among the other vids because of how it handled the opening. It's all about consequences for actions. I'm continually torn over Walter's character because he's so many things and there's so many different ways to feel about his character. This pulls a lot of those feelings into one coherent vid. The cause and effect throughout the vid is killer. -rhoboat

White Rabbit (Puella Magi Madoka Magica) - Trippy as hell and I loved it. -shati

Masters of War (The Pegasus Rising Remix) (Stargate: Atlantis)- A lot of people in SGA fandom have been waiting years for a vid like this. Much like Lateralus from above, it's all about consequences. SGA tended to be a show of squee, but it always something dark with a mask painted over it for me. -bironic

Possession (Legend of the Seeker) - So beautiful. -bradcpu

The Lightning Strike (multi) - When the vid first started my thought was, "ohhh, Nicky would hate this. It's a bunch of white dudes clowning around making war." Then after a moment I recognized the editing and realized it was her vid. Oops, that will teach me to not look at the program beforehand. This is absolutely the ultimate epic slash vid throughout history and beyond. -obsessive24

vid title: Long, Long Time Ago music: Javier Navarrete source: Destino duration: 2:15

notes: Made for 2012 vividcon Premieres.

summary: A surreal dance through the universe with a woman who loves a man. A man set free from stone to go after the woman carved in his heart.

download: streaming video
30mb avi

January
none

February
06 - Brand New Key (Pulp Fiction) - Some people say I've done alright for a girl.
It's my own little take on the movie. I remember watching it when I was very young and wanting it to be more about Mia Wallace, Honey Bunny, Fabienne, Esmarelda, Jodi & Trudi, Raquel, and even the waitress that corrects Pumpkin with flat confidence. I watched the insanely edited version that was on tv, so I fell in love with a horribly cut up and pasted together movie. I watched the VHS of it so much that it warped (the same way my Mary Poppins tape did). My aunt rented me the original version to watch and my mind was blown because it made actual sense.

March
none

April
13 - Spit the Devil (V the Series) - Erica/Anna: firedogs
The series was never as good as when these two were on screen together. There was a sizzle and smolder when they interacted because they were two powerful, willful, strong, intelligent characters on opposite ends of a spectrum. While opposing each other, they were quite similar in their actions, motivations, and emotional status. Together they would have been a flash fire that destroyed everything around them. I only wish that it was possible to watch, therefore, I created an alternate universe where we could see those Ladies of War interact on a sexual and romantic level.

May and June
none

July
13 - Lullaby (Damages) - Ray Fiske's life spent trying to do well.
There has never been a character that filled me with such sadness and sorrow as this one. He never lived his life for himself. It becomes his purpose to make everyone else's life work and to fix the problems of others, but he pushed aside his own needs and feelings. When it did finally address them, the results were not entirely favorable and he spent the rest of his life seemingly crushed under the weight of his own weaknesses like a broken puppy.

August
14 - Bright Star (Bright Star) - Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath, And so live ever--or else swoon to death.
I wanted something delicate and light in the editing and I wanted to capture a mood and atmosphere with it like falling in love when you find it hard to breathe and everything slows down and speeds up like you're dying inside.

14 - Black Dove (January) (Doctor Who) - River Song was a January girl, she never let on how insane it was.
Fuck Yeah River Song and other unconventional aspects of her great and powerful awesomeness.

September, October, and November
none

December
21 - Somewhere Only We Know (Winnie the Pooh) - I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
I have loved Winnie the Pooh from my first memory. It is like the pain from an old wound soothed.

Total of 6 vids.

( year end vidding meme 2011 )

And in addition:
If there is any question you would like to ask me about any one of my vids, then go ahead! What I meant by a particular clip or sequence, why I chose to highlight that characterization, why I chose that song, what crack I was taking and where you can get some...anything. Anything you might like to know about how I made a vid, I shall do my best to answer.

vid title: Bright Star music: "Love Song" from Mikal Portnoi Lazarev and "An Ex-Girlfriend From an Ex-Life" from Bobby Johnston. source: Bright Star duration: 2:34

notes: Made for 2011 vividcon Challenges show, "Blast from the Past."

summary: Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath, And so live ever--or else swoon to death.

download: 30mb avi

FESTIVIDS VID RECS:
Ghost of a Shark (Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford)
Serpent Charmer (Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford)

Hurt (Batman Beyond)
State of Confustion (The Big Lebowski)
You say tomato, I say tabarnak (Bon Cop Bad Cop)
Ain't No Easy Way (Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid)
Don't Let it Bring You Down (Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid)

Blinding (Charlie Jade)
Another One Bites the Dust (Clue)
Space Oddity (Community)
tv taught me how to feel (Community)
In a Moment (Constantine)

Black Horse and a Cherry Tree (Dead Like Me)
There is a Boy Who Never Goes Out (Dead Like Me)
Cowboy Singer (Deadwood)
New Shoes (Doctor Who)
One Day Like This (Doctor Who)
Hardest Man (Double Happiness)
Hey Now Now (Dragonslayer)

Witchy Woman (Eastwick)
Do You Want To (Eddie Izzard)
Amnesia (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)
Big Pimpin'/Papercut (Event Horizon)

Dear Sons and Daughters of Hungry Ghosts (The Fall)
The Next Time You Say Forever (Felicity)
Float On (Finding Nemo)
Paranormal Activity (The Frighteners)
The Great Architect (From Hell)

Walk the Walk (Hackers)
Runaway (Homicide: Life on the Street)
Blue (Hot Fuzz)
Friends (How I Met Your Mother)
In the Sun (Huge)

Pure Imagination (The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus)
Fire in the Ivory (Inglourious Basterds)
All the Way (the Invisible Man)

I'm Your Man (Jekyll)
Anywhere on This Road (Jericho)

Ballad of the Last Unicorn (The Last Unicorn)
End of the World (Life After People)
Slow Burn (The Lives of Others)
Life During Wartime (Lone Gunmen)
Pump It! (The Losers)
The Owl Means Low (Lost in Austen)
Samsa Morning (Lost in Austen)

Let It Be (Mad Men)
Between the Bars (The Mentalist)
Get Some (Millennium Trilogy)
Nowhere Near (Miracles)
Misfit's First Christmas (Misfits)
The Rules of Parenting (Modern Family)

Threnody (Nikita)

As Above, So Below (Pan's Labyrinth)
Attention Please (Paprika)
A Well Respected Man (Profit)
Don't Walk Away (Psych)
In the City (Psych)
Brand New Key (Pulp Fiction)
Father & Daughter (Punky Brewster)
i gave you all (Push)

Battle Without Honor or Humanity (R.O.D. - The TV)
Inyodo (Riverworld)
Skinny Genes (Rizzoli & Isles)
Dance in the Dark (RPF - Lady Gaga)
I Follow You (Rubicon)

Make It Pop (Scott Pilgram vs the World)
Teenage Dirtbag (Scott Pilgram vs the World)
Bare Your Teeth (Snow White: A Tale of Terror)
Who Needs Enemies (Star Trek Deep Space Nine)
Resistance (Star Trek - Next Generation)
Hook and Line (Superman cartoons)
Her Name is Alice (Syfy's Alice)

L.E.S. Artistes (Terminator movies)

Truth is in the Dirt (V)
Jaded (Velvet Goldmine)

VID RECS:
bop_radar's Brand New Start (True Blood)- Aww, Jessica and Hoyt are probably my favorite couple on True Blood. The music is cute for them in the vid, which is strange and adorable.
bop_radar's When life gives me lemons, I make lemonade (Community)- Great quirky editing, music use, and sound matching. I had the doofiest grin on my face for most of the vid.

danegen's Power (True Blood)- The song choice fits Russell absolutely. I wanted to laugh, which I did, but I ended up taking the whole thing seriously. I was caught between the LOLZ and the SRS BSNS.
danegen's Sweet Ones (Were the World Mine)- Total fun! Great music and it does a great job of fitting in with the movie too. It has a fantastical feeling in the music that is perfect for the movie.

sol_se's Evil Love Shack of Darkness (Evil Dead, Evil Dead 2, Army of Darkness)- LOLZ, hi-larious and awesome. I'm bouncing along with the song and the chainsaw. KILLED ME DEAD WITH LAUGHTER.

vid title:A Bar in Amsterdam music: Katzenjammer source: Ginger Snaps trilogy duration: 2:56 Premiered in the vividcon O Canada vidshow.

summary: Hearts that should fight.

download: 30mb xvid avi


( lyrics )

Vividcon 2010 premieres:
twinkle, twinkle (Doctor Who) - Challenges
Heads Will Roll (Misfit) - Club Vivid
U. R. A. Fever (Fringe) - Also Premiering
A Bar in Amsterdam (Ginger Snaps trilogy) - O Canada

Previously released shown in vidshows:
Skinny Love (House) - We're Here, We're Queer
Closer (For Jamie) (9 Songs, Lie With Me, Shortbus) - Sexuality
I'm on a Boat (Star Trek new 2009 reboot whatever we're calling it) - Club Vivid
that brøken day (The Brøken) - Nearly New