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kiki_miserychic) wrote2009-12-15 01:01 am
kiki_miserychic) wrote2009-12-15 01:01 am
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Dexter - 4x12 - The Getaway
I have a million swirling thoughts about Dexter, the show and the character. I finished watching the season finale about ten minutes ago and I still can't think properly. I keep thinking back on the previous episodes this season and remembering little things, like how it was Dexter's family that made him weak in the end. He stepped into fully when he thought Trinity shot Deb and that's when things started turning to shit. I think this season has been my favorite, even better than the first because it went deeper and harder.
He wanted to learn from Trinity how how to achieve the balance that would allow him to be a better father/husband. He was all surface with nothing underneath, while Dexter falters on the surface and has deeper feelings that he doesn't know how to express or feel. Dexter doesn't know how to express most of his feelings and doesn't understand them, which led to his mistakes this season. Emotionally and in a socially meaningful context, Dexter is still that child sitting in a pool of his mother's blood. Trinity was the worst possible human being to use as a familial model for Dexter. The Thanksgiving episode had me wrecked. For personal reasons, I was terrified. Absolutely terrified of Trinity. Dexter was right when he held that knife to Trinity on the kitchen floor: "I should have fucking killed you when I had the chance." Dexter doesn't deal well with guilt and I think the guilt from not killing Trinity sooner will eat away at what part of his soul Dexter is in touch with. Dexter was in the fucking truck while Trinity killed Rita. We know how she died in that bathtub and I can only hope that Trinity didn't tell her the truth about Dexter as he murdered her. I'm usually the type of person that values honesty and doesn't believe that ignorance is bliss, but not in this case. Rita and Deb are my favorite characters, Deb being my first. She's coming closer and closer to the truth and as much as I know that's a part of who Deb is, I never wanted them to find out about Dexter. I think that what Dexter represents in their lives is more important than the truth that will shatter their illusion.
There are so many blasted loose ends. So many that I can't even rein them all in to make a list. I want season five right now and I want it to be about the downfall. I want to see Dexter drown in his own spilled blood. Yes, I relate to Dexter far more than most people, but I can still comprehend that he ends human life. It's human life that he has declared void, but that is not for one person to decide. I hope next season will be the last because in light of the season finale, I think it's been leading up to the end. The illusion is that Dexter is the Dark Defender, but he's a murder in reality. We've watched the show for four seasons and we've bought into the wink and nudge. It's like when I watched![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
cherryice's Convenient Parking and it made me see Dexter in a different way. We see parts of him that no one else does, the same way we saw pieces of Trinity. When what Dexter has done comes out, they will be seen as the same thing: serial killers. Trinity's family and Dexter's will go through the same thing. Deb will be hurt the most from it. As much as I relate and understand Dexter, I care about and love the people around him. There's a wink and a nudge to the audience, literally in the credits shown at the beginning of every episode, that Dexter does these things and gets away with it. We go along with it, which is why many don't want to see Dexter be caught. It's like I'm the sick one for wanting to see him destroyed.
FUCK, Rita. I'm going to watchkeewick's Stars and cry.
FUCK.
He wanted to learn from Trinity how how to achieve the balance that would allow him to be a better father/husband. He was all surface with nothing underneath, while Dexter falters on the surface and has deeper feelings that he doesn't know how to express or feel. Dexter doesn't know how to express most of his feelings and doesn't understand them, which led to his mistakes this season. Emotionally and in a socially meaningful context, Dexter is still that child sitting in a pool of his mother's blood. Trinity was the worst possible human being to use as a familial model for Dexter. The Thanksgiving episode had me wrecked. For personal reasons, I was terrified. Absolutely terrified of Trinity. Dexter was right when he held that knife to Trinity on the kitchen floor: "I should have fucking killed you when I had the chance." Dexter doesn't deal well with guilt and I think the guilt from not killing Trinity sooner will eat away at what part of his soul Dexter is in touch with. Dexter was in the fucking truck while Trinity killed Rita. We know how she died in that bathtub and I can only hope that Trinity didn't tell her the truth about Dexter as he murdered her. I'm usually the type of person that values honesty and doesn't believe that ignorance is bliss, but not in this case. Rita and Deb are my favorite characters, Deb being my first. She's coming closer and closer to the truth and as much as I know that's a part of who Deb is, I never wanted them to find out about Dexter. I think that what Dexter represents in their lives is more important than the truth that will shatter their illusion.
There are so many blasted loose ends. So many that I can't even rein them all in to make a list. I want season five right now and I want it to be about the downfall. I want to see Dexter drown in his own spilled blood. Yes, I relate to Dexter far more than most people, but I can still comprehend that he ends human life. It's human life that he has declared void, but that is not for one person to decide. I hope next season will be the last because in light of the season finale, I think it's been leading up to the end. The illusion is that Dexter is the Dark Defender, but he's a murder in reality. We've watched the show for four seasons and we've bought into the wink and nudge. It's like when I watched
cherryice's Convenient Parking and it made me see Dexter in a different way. We see parts of him that no one else does, the same way we saw pieces of Trinity. When what Dexter has done comes out, they will be seen as the same thing: serial killers. Trinity's family and Dexter's will go through the same thing. Deb will be hurt the most from it. As much as I relate and understand Dexter, I care about and love the people around him. There's a wink and a nudge to the audience, literally in the credits shown at the beginning of every episode, that Dexter does these things and gets away with it. We go along with it, which is why many don't want to see Dexter be caught. It's like I'm the sick one for wanting to see him destroyed.FUCK, Rita. I'm going to watch
keewick's Stars and cry.FUCK.
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I have so many more thoughts that are swirling in my brainpan.
I don't think I could have taken seeing Rita's death, especially if Trinity told her about Dexter. We didn't need to see it with the way the storyline progressed. I'm glad there was no flashback too.
What's worse is that for a while there he thought he could better his family by keeping him around and in the end that just destroyed them. Ugh. Awful!
That's the part that will break him the most, that letdown.
Shit, Dexter is responsible for both of Aster and Cody's parents' deaths.
I haven't even started thinking about Dexter being a single father. He'll have a shady alibi if something happens because his children will likely be with a babysitter while he's murdering people.
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And oh I never thought of his alibi either! Wow, there are seriously NO WORDS! Season 5 cannot get here fast enough! Eeee!
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In terms of time, there's almost no way he can keep killing at his usual rate with the children. I hope he keeps Aster and Cody too, even though they might be going to Paul's parents.
YES, season 5, NAO.